Don’t get me wrong, I love my daughter, I love everything about her and there’s not a minute that passes where I don’t feel grateful and completely lucky. But, motherhood is so much harder than I thought it would be. Continue reading “I Was Not Ready For Motherhood”
As a mother, the most peaceful time is often when the kids are sleeping. It’s when their bodies grow and their minds dream. As I gaze at her, watching her smiling in her sleep or reaching out at nothing, my mind also wanders. I think back to her newborn days where every day was a struggle. Everything was dedicated to her thriving, whilst I seemingly survived on adrenaline (and Ubereats!). I wasn’t sure if we would make it through. Those days seem like a while ago, but somehow the doubts I struggled with still creep into my thoughts.
Being a first time mum is hard work. We didn’t know much about babies when we had Madeleine, so our transition into parenthood was a bit bumpy! We didn’t give much thought into what would happen after I gave birth. Now that we’ve been through it all, I have a better idea of what’s really needed and what I don’t need! Here’s what I wish I had known:
(excuse my legs, I did not get around to putting on some tan!)
My daughter is 10 months now and I breastfed her for 9 and a half months, until one day I lost my supply due to restarting work. When this happened, I felt a big sense of regret and sadness that my breastfeeding career had come to an end. But at the same time, I was excited and relieved.