Today is my daughter’s first birthday! I can’t believe how quickly it has gone by and I find myself reflecting on the year that has passed. I’ve never used so many adjectives to describe how I feel. There are not enough words to describe how much I have grown in this past year and how much she has taught me.
In the past year:
- I have learnt that miracles do happen. It still blows my mind that I grew another human being within my own body! I still can’t believe that she came from me and that we have a daughter. Giving birth to her is a pinch myself moment. Meeting her for the first time after 9 months, was another pinch me moment. We are so incredibly lucky.
- I have learnt to survive. Healing from childbirth, cracked and bleeding nipples, waking up every 2 to 3 hours to a screaming baby. The newborn days are tough but we made it through. I feel like I can take on anything now.
- I have learnt to be patient. When she cries, I take my time to change her, feed her, bathe her or cuddle her for as long as it takes. There is no time limit for her.
- I have learnt to love. Everyday my love for her grows. I will continue to tell her I love her every single day. Even when she’s a rebellious teenager and we’re shouting at each other, I will continue to tell her. There is not enough times I could tell her I love her.
- I have learnt to appreciate the little things in life. I no longer have any desire for materialistic things. A fancy house, fancy car, fancy jewellery are no longer a want. All I need is my family and time to spend together.
- I have learnt to save. I will do anything for my daughter. I will work hard and save to provide a better life for her.
- I have learnt how to deal with sleep deprivation. Waking up in the middle of the night isn’t a chore anymore. I have learnt to embrace it. More time to cuddle with her, now that I’m back at work.
- I have learnt to love my husband on a deeper level. He is truly my rock. He makes me realise what I am capable of. Our marriage has definitely changed since Madeleine was born but it is the strongest it has ever been. You can read about it here.
- I have learnt to let go and laugh. I can’t control how much she eats or sleeps or when she naps. My daughter now has a mind of her own! I’ve learnt to just run with it, and spend my energy laughing with her instead.
This list can go on and on. There are times when I complain about the downs of motherhood, but I’ve also learnt to endure the hard times. I always say this but it is true: when there’s a difficult day, there will be a happy day. The tough times don’t last long. Before you know it, they are toddlers, then teenagers, then adults. They grow up too quickly.
I absolutely love being a mum. It is challenging but also the most rewarding job I’ve ever done. When I’ve had a rough day, I just take a look at my greatest achievement, my daughter. Her laughter makes me forget everything. Happy first birthday Madeleine! You make mummy and daddy so happy every single day!